i'm freakin' pissed off at my dad.

it's an uber long story and i'm not in the mood to talk about it now.

argh. why has life to be so hard?

chimugur-kego @ 11:27 AM ||

I'm finding it easier to blog everything out on livejournal recently. If you're interested, just ask me for the link. I'd like to keep it sort of private without restricting it to friends-only. :)

chimugur-kego @ 8:48 PM ||

I keep wanting to blog, but I don't have anything worth writing about. This rather jumbled collection of randomness is to get the nagging feeling out of my system so I can settle back down with my English. 2006 has been a bit of a mixed bag so far. Life is a box of chocolates...

* Lost my ring, and have accepted that it's gone. Three years of memories :(

* Board S15 went live on the 14th and I've never felt closer to the crew. We really want the family atmosphere back, and it warms me knowing there are members who trust us enough to support and make the jump with us.

* Spent $40 on storybooks within 24 hours of returning to open DBSG spazzing. My Hug storybook wanted company after being left alone untouched for 18 months.

* Fell back in love with Micky Yoochun (bet you didn't know I liked Yoochun 2 months before Dongwook!! I have wondered whether I'd wake up one morning and be infatuated with Minwoo again though...) That's led to daily guilt trips with umma while 'Jecka' and 'Vicki' are being naughty in Rome *hangs head*

* Listened to 여우비 way too much for my own good and am scared of checking audioscrobbler as a result. He composed it! And he was singing while playing the piano himself ._.

* Got into SOAS. Even if I don't end up going, I'm happy ^^

* Found out the dates for this year's YTTC and convos - really don't know how I'm going to work around it. I'm actually contemplating flying straight to Seoul rather than hanging around in Hong Kong by myself when there's not much point in being there.

* Spent ages looking for Micky's necklace around school on Monday when I thought I'd lost that too. Burst out crying on Paras before finding it 2 hours later on steps outside main building.

* A2 modules start tomorrow and I'm thinking I should be a tad more concerned about them. I'm strangely calm and ironically, that's somewhat disconcerting.

* Shecksy anniversary postponed until the 28th January because Jenerri are too busy for me on the 26th. Hmph.

3 cups of cappuccino in a day is the current record for this year. Apparently caffeine makes me flirtatious *nudges* mehrong LOL!

chimugur-kego @ 5:38 PM ||

i just found out that theres a posibility that my cousin is moving to another city. i dont want her to leave.

my exams start on tuesday, have to raise those grades. wish me luck. =)

chimugur-kego @ 10:48 PM ||

I've been putting this off for a while because I don't actually know how to sum up 2005. There were loads of memorable moments, but there were also lows that made me lose sight of the highs briefly. I'm thankful for the amazing people who accompanied me through this year, and 2006 seems less daunting because I know I've got you with me :)

In January I became MOA mod at SHCJ and soon after, Shecksy was formed. Even when we're all busy with school, the next shecksy chat would never be too far off. Jenerri mean the world to me and you two gave me one of the most special birthdays ever. I think that was the first time I cried at 2 minutes past midnight on the 6th of April =P Jecka loves Sherri and Jenjen so soososos much. I also met Anne this year and it's impossible to imagine either SHCJ without her or Jecka without her daily dose of Annie.

I gained an umma in 2005 too! And a halmoni that's younger than me. Yes, Dakikaya may be a dysfunctional family but there's so much loving (aside from the fangirly and at times incestual sort). You helped me through the hard times and the MSN huggles mean as much as the SMSes and cards.. so stop spending your money haha <3 Like 2004, I have to say most memorable moment once again involved Nyanya. Making her birthday scrapbook and writing the fanfic made us grow so close and I will never forget watching umma and nyanya on webcam that morning. I smile giddy just thinking about it. Jecka loves you all beyond words.

I had an amazing summer too. China was a once-in-a-lifetime experience and I met so many people, visited so many places and fell in love with Shanghai. Then the reunion in October was an event XD Running across a busy road in formal dress for a free meal at McDonalds comes to mind. But it's all okies because Dayna is a sweetheart <3

Music-wise, it has to be 1TYM. It's only been 2 months, but it's been such a ride: the countdown when the 1 Nov release date was announced, the euphoria at the Comeback, the initial shock of the MV for 'Do you know me?', the seemingly collapse of everything when Baek got hurt, Teddy's leadership qualities shining through in the aftermath and now the Goodbye Concert.

It's been quite a quiet year for SE7EN Kpop fans~ going from new clips every day to a drought of nothing at weeks at a time was good news in terms of accomodating schoolwork, but there were times when I missed him so frigging much. That's obviously made worse by the fact that you don't know how he's doing. As much as we don't want to believe it, you know he's working too hard. The scare during the Style showcase made me love him as an artist even more. His refusal to lip sync despite the long-term risks to his voice just proves his commitment. And there was 'The One' <3

And there won't be a Top 10 Kpop Songs of 2005 from me because Dakika have grouped together to list Top 30~ which was still hard mind you. If we could have our way, an entire SS501 single would have made it onto the list.

So 2006 will be the A2 level and university in September. But I get to look forward to Seoul with Dayna and Annie! And the World Cup! And SE7EN and Shinhwa albums! 'Twill be a good year.. hehe.. so I wish you all a HAPPY NEW YEAR~ :)

chimugur-kego @ 5:09 PM ||

Jecka dolly loves her family <3 No other words needed for that point :)

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When I was young
I'd listen to the radio
Waiting for my favorite songs
When they played I'd sing along
It made me smile.

Those were such happy times
And not so long ago
How I wondered where they'd gone
But they're back again
Just like a long lost friend
All the songs I loved so well.

Every Sha-la-la-la
Every Wo-ah-wo-oh
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're starting to sing's
So fine.

When they get to the part
Where he's breaking her heart
It can really make me cry
Just like before
It's yesterday once more.

I don't think I could ever put into words how amazing music is. When one of the best weeks of my life can be epitomized be 'Wah Joh', when I turn to 'Cry' for comfort, when 'Snowflower' is enough to make me tear, when 'The One' makes me giddy, I realise it's music that parallels my life. It's something abstract that touches me like no other thing on earth, but I know it'll never leave me.

1TYM may be forced to have a break for a little while, but they've left us 5 amazing albums to keep us company over the next few years. We won't bid them farewell with tears. We shouldn't cry because it means we can start counting down to the comeback. The boys will return, and we'll all be in Seoul the day they grace the stage together again.

Now if I keep telling myself that, maybes it'll be easier. Property of 1TYM for life, neh? Fo' sheezy. =P

chimugur-kego @ 7:52 PM ||

So I listen to one song and all the recent SS501 spazzing suddenly seems irrelevant. I think for any other song, I would have had qualms about the Chinese. That's why I'm surprising myself by loving this track so much. I'm also surprised by the fact that I'm not bothered about him re-recording and risking ruining my favourite song. Then again I don't think I would have cared what language it was; so long as it's his voice, and so long as it's still Wah Joh. Dongwook ahhh come back... Jecka misses you :(

My dear Sherri baby has a point though~ Wah Joh has potential to be popping up in very many languages. Next will be francais we reckon:

√ىheddi™ — jecksy<3 living off Godiva and Starbucks with JECKA<3 says:
SIL VOUS PLAIT COME BACK A MOI BABY

Indeed :)

chimugur-kego @ 11:07 PM ||